Don't Know Why

I can't figure out what to do with my life. I've been stuck between nothing and nothing for months now, going neither here nor there while nothing, and at the same time everything, catches my interest.

Indecision is a curse. Every option is completely equal until my mind is reeling, I'm having hot flashes, my head is pounding and it feels like there's a sponge inside it absorbing liquid until it presses against the inside of my skull with such force that it threatens to crack. I should be able to stop, turn and point to something and say, Yes please. But I can't.

Don't know how I got like this, and I don't know why.